I'm still wrapping my mind around the fact that this year is nearly over! I have shared the depth of my heart this year, from writing my first book, to self publishing, to short term jobs, job loss and depression. I have watched the hand of God literally carry me from the darkest of days, weeks, months and moments. I started off the year on such a high note but found myself holding onto God and life with my bare hands. There were days that I didn't know where my next meal, rent payment was coming from but God never let the bottom completely fall out! I'm ending the year out in a new position, a new job yet I don't put my faith or hope in it.
Today we were told that sometime around April there could be a possible short layoff due to the fact that we are a very small office and small department. The old me would have panicked, ran in circles but after the year I've had I trust God with my whole life! April seems so far off and for now I know I'm alright. Nothing can shake my faith because this year my faith has been shaken to the max! Enrolling in school next month, following God's plan not my own this time around. Planning on paying off debt, planning vacations and jotting things down on my lunch break. I'm still fragile yet hopeful, I refuse to worry or doubt the lord, I can only think of and live in the moment that is today. God has already ordered my steps and he's ordered yours too.
There are so many people who spend their entire lives stressed out and worrying about people, situations and circumstances that God just wants to handle without interference. Why do we consistently run around panicking and worrying when Jesus already told us that he'd take care of things? He didn't promise you a life without pain, he didn't promise sunshine nor did he tell us that everything would be easy but he consistently tells us not to worry, to trust him and to know that all things work together for the good of those who love him! Do you love him? Do you trust him? I couldn't say that confidently 8 or 9 months ago, I said it with my mouth but my heart kept trying to do things my way. I would wake up daily and whisper God I trust you today with my life! At first they were merely empty words but then I began to believe those words with my whole heart. I challenge you to consistently say God I trust you even when life gets rough, even when people give up on you or walk away. We aren't all in the same boat and I despise it when people are told that it's their "season." I'm like their season for what? There are various seasons, various harvests, tests and trials and we aren't all going at the same pace or even going in the same direction but as long as you're seeking Jesus Christ with your whole heart you're going the right way. Don't lose heart when your ship seems like it's swaying, don't lose heart when it seems like life is throwing you one curve after another! Stay focused on God not man, scripture warns us about being unstable: “Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.” James 1:8 NLT
God is there, he loves you and cares even when you feel like you're out in the middle of the ocean, alone and lost at sea. Wishing you peace and many blessings throughout the rest of this year and I can't wait to see what 2016 has in store. Whatever season you're going into or coming out of TRUST God and remain steadfast. - Cdj ❤️