Trusting God

Proverbs 29:25 NLT

[25] Fearing people is a dangerous trap, but trusting the Lord means safety.

Many say that they trust God yet they want to hold on to their "stuff." As I was studying about trust a moment ago I thought I'd share with you all. My favorite scripture is: Nahum 1:7 NLT

[7] The Lord is good, a strong refuge when trouble comes. He is close to those who trust in him.

Thing is that I wasn't comprehending the full meaning of it or the depth of it for that matter! I was one of the ones who would run to God when I needed something or when I was afraid. I'm a "fixer" by nature I always feel the need to put my spin on things or do what I call myself "having to do." Lately he's pulling the bottom out to the point where my days end with me flat on my face crying out to him... Humans can't fix nor solve our problems. They have temporary solutions for temporary issues but those issues will continue to resurface because humans aren't equipped to solve problems! Especially not big problems that we often cause by trying to "fix" things. I had to straight up go before God completely broken and say," I've made a mess and I'm sorry for taking matters into my own hands." I'm up to my eye balls in student loans... I've got these people calling me about this and these people calling me about this and I owe them, them and if I sat down to harp on it I'd probably cry until I'm dehydrated. You ever been so overwhelmed that tears don't even form?? So I began to think of this scripture: 

Psalm 111:10 NLT

[10] Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true wisdom. All who obey his commandments will grow in wisdom. Praise him forever!

I started praising him and worshiping him right there in my bedroom. Now my bills are still there lol but stay with me... I started focusing on him and realized that I can't solve these issues without him. I started realizing he's my only source and I have to trust him completely. Sometimes when we start to get comfortable we become too relaxed in our walk with him. We get too cozy and we don't spend time like we should. I became transparent, I told him everything and then I stopped and started thanking him for what he's already done. I haven't been able to stress and EVERYTIME it crosses my mind I just say ok God I need a way to get this done. Physically I do not have it but somehow I eat everyday, I have lights, my rent is paid and he provides. I'm alright, I'll be alright this is life and he's given me everything I need to handle it but I will no longer attempt to handle it without him! Now y'all don't start feeling sorry for me, I'm not feeling sorry for me LOL! I'm good, this is temporary. It's all so temporary and I trust him. Do you trust him with whatever it is that you're struggling with? Your mouth says yes but your heart... Put it down I DARE YOU to! Trusting him brings peace even when everything around you is spinning. Trusting him relieves stress even when your mind wants to be like we have to solve this! No we give this to him, that's what faith is. It's believing what we can't see! Gotta run, lunch break is over but trust him ok??

Cdj❤️