This journey that I'm on requires substantial amounts of time talking, praying and even crying out to God on a daily basis. This new road, this new place that he has me in causes me to constantly seek his counsel and face about how to handle life. If I can be completely honest about this new journey I have to say that I don't know where I'm going. I don't know what I'm doing but I'm obeying him and I know that his plans won't lead me down a path of destruction. I spent a lot of time doing my own thing, fixing things and figuring out how to function only to find myself flat on my face.
I realized that I'd made a mess which led me to cry out to God as if he just had to fix a mess that I made. I've made some messes in life be it financially, emotionally or spiritually. I've had moments where I was completely self led. I recently wrote a book called Inner Selfie and I went into great detail about my life. There were many things that I'd never shared with anyone so I was hesitant but God said write the book. Yesterday was my release day and I found myself very frustrated with minor details, typos and formatting. I stopped to realize that I hadn't gotten my daily fill up of Jesus! I was so busy promoting what he told me to write but I neglected the real author! I felt sick after realizing this so I just sat down and talked with him, prayed and repented for putting other things first.
I love the Holy Spirit because it's definitely a comforter but it's also a guide. You know how you set reminders on your TV, phone and other devices? Well Jesus sent the Holy Spirit to remind us of some things! When I don't spend time there's that empty feeling in my heart like something is missing. When I don't spend quality time with the lord I feel lost, emotional and drained so I'm reminded daily to spend those moments with him. I'm short with people, my attitude isn't right and I have very little patience when that time is not put in because I'm technically running on "E." Whenever I feel empty I think of this scripture: